If You Only Knew

my eternal maestro, as i have considered what brought us together and what we share, i came upon this poem which was penned just before i confessed my sentiments for you. indeed, i would have left it on your desk, or somewhere you could stumble upon it. i am glad, though, i have the occasion to share it with you now.

i am truly a charmed immortal for being able to call you my husband. eternal companion, such shall always be my sentiments, on this mortal coil and the world which awaits when this earth perishes.

i love you with all that i am.
peter

***

nervous breaths exhaled

wild with anticipation

if you kiss me, i just might perish

but if i perish, i would die happy.

watching you with eager eyes

gaze upon you with hungry thoughts.

all it would take is

the world stopping

   for

      just

         a

           few

              seconds

and i might summon the courage

and i might take the plunge

and i might burn brighter than the sun

lest i atrophy without your touch

if you only knew

staring at you in my mind’s eye

how many times have we embraced?

how many times have i savored

the taste, the feel, my senses overwhelmed.

if you only knew

that in this moment,

at this very minute,

i want nothing more than to

part my lips

    and speak the words

      and damn the consequences

i want nothing more

than to study you with my fingertips

and memorize your scent

and pray for you to reciprocate

       and never, ever stop.

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Anything’s Possible

for you, my maestro and husband…

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The Coming Danger

Penned on the flight to Tokyo…

This is not the first time I have tangled with the Supernatural Order and it will not be the last. I spoke those words to Victor as we headed to Toronto, albeit with more humor in my voice than I currently would impart upon the declaration. Still, it is a reality I have occupied for over twenty years now. It seems my fate has been interwoven with their existence.

The simple explanation could be summarized by noting I am a seer. I was born to be a vampire hunter and somehow, wound up becoming an immortal instead. Throughout the twenty-seven years I have possessed fangs, twenty-two of them have been spent walking this earth with psychic abilities. I managed to avoid the stern eye of the cosmos for the past sixteen years. And now, my respite from my calling has come to an unfortunate end.

One could be very quick to remind me this is not my fault. In these sixteen years, I have been a rogue, but without any duties from The Fates I have been shirking. Oh certainly, I could have been in servitude to the Order had our last meeting not gone the way it did, but even if I had not been warned to stay as far from Seattle as possible, I would not have been of the mind to help them. Not after they stole John and Lydia and stripped me of one of my abilities.

Correction. Blocked one. That, however, is a story for another time.

Whatever the matter, in those years, I both mourned and healed, both came to lose everything and gain so much more back. I lost love and found love. I watched the woman I adored turn to dust; held the hand of the man for whom I would die and exchanged vows. The first time I looked at Victor and beheld my new husband, I saw the future within his chestnut colored eyes. I knew it would be filled with both good times and bad ones. I never realized, though, how soon the tide was to turn in the world around us.

It started with the videos, and turned into the summit we attended with distinguished members of his bloodline. I recall being introduced to kings and queens, dukes and members of the class to which Victor belongs, the Primael. I listened to a man named Mitchell Livingston declare to us this threat could be the single worst problem immortal kind has ever had to weather and saw it in the eyes of each immortal gathered that this was truth. On the other side of this tempest would either be our victory or our destruction. There was no way, however, that vampires could remain underground for much longer.

And yet nobody seemed to have the answers.

Truly, I should have walked out of that meeting knowing what happened. Nobody else has the resources or the will to launch such an underhanded attack against us. No, it is the Order who are both entrusted with the responsibility of protecting the natural order and the engineers of its collapse in recent years. They were behind the slaughter in Europe I ended and now, it would seem the Fates have chosen us to be the ones to stop its latest enterprise. At the same time, I find myself wondering about the cost.

By now, John and Lydia have made it into the Order’s Seattle Headquarters and heaven only knows what happened the first time they sat down with Wallace Alexander. I still remember being held down and screaming in agony as his hands touched my head and his will shoved my ability to turn mortal into the tightest closet ever manufactured. I remember that distinct emptiness at losing it all sixteen years ago, an emptiness which almost resulted in a successful suicide attempt. Knowing he is now supervising my children brings with it no measure of comfort for me.

Beyond this, though, I know the moment he looked at Lydia and saw I had turned my daughter into a vampire, I might as well have signed my death warrant. John approached Victor and me prior to leaving for Seattle, asking us to seek shelter somewhere far away from Philadelphia for this very reason. In order for he and his sister to figure out why the Order is recording Victor’s bloodline in the midst of feeding and distributing those videos, he needed to know we would be safe. We spirited away to Toronto and then, departed for Vancouver. As we waited with Delilah and Robin for our final flight to Tokyo, I watched my brother and his bonded suffer with anguish over what might happen to John and Lydia. My eyes fell to Victor as we boarded the airplane, and my demeanor faltered despite myself.

I could no more leave him to such a fate than Delilah and Robin should have been asked to do for John and Lydia. Indeed, wherever Victor goes and in whatever danger he might find himself, I would be right there, facing it beside him. Still, there was no way any of us could accompany John and Lydia without weapons drawn and all of us ready to face our deaths. We would slay as many as we could. Our ends, however, would be imminent.

In not doing anything, though, I still find myself in trouble. Two master seers have visited Allen’s coven and threatened my old friend. We are half a world away, bound for the residence of Victor’s old friend Nathan, but I still see the storm clouds on the horizon, the familiar harbinger of danger about to engulf us. The sword I carry with me once again hums with the familiar resonance of duty waiting, a threat riding on the wings about to descend like a drove of hawks. What we are about to face, I do not know. I only know one thing for certain.

While I know Victor can more than hold his own, indeed he has lived for four centuries on this mortal coil by his own recognances, I still fear for whatever might come for us. The twisted hand of fate has never spared me my sentiments as it has brought its weight upon my shoulders and knowing the Order will have me in its sights causes me to fear for my maestro, my husband and lover. Whatever may come, I know we can face together as we have faced every trial we have endured thus far and made it to the other side.

Still, I would feel that much better about it if I knew what to expect.

His immortal poet, forever and always,
Peter

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The Eleventh Hour – Pt. 3

Berlin, Germany – Twenty years ago.

A heavy rain descended on the streets of Berlin, a wet chill working its way into the marrow of those pedestrians unfortunate enough to be caught in the deluge. The slick streets reflected illuminated lampposts; cars speeding by displaced water with their windshield wipers swinging like a metronome keeping time with the rhythm of life. For several months, it seemed neither sun, nor moon, shone the same way it once had, but that could have been Karl Wagner’s perceptions conspiring against him.

Either that, or he had been working too hard lately.

Digging his hands into the pockets of his heavy, wool trench coat, Karl continued walking toward a large estate nestled deep in the heart of the city. His cheap, brown loafers splashed in puddles, soaking his feet while a sigh escaped his lips. It produced a billow of steam which mingled with the rain. As Karl lifted his eyes from the dirty sidewalk to the wrought iron gates protecting the largest vampire nest in Berlin, a frown tugged at the corners of his mouth. It might have only been months, but it felt like years since the world was the way he remembered it. He feared it would never be the same way again. Read the rest of this entry

The Future is an Open Book

tomorrow exists within the confines of a sonnet.
it sings to me sweetly, calming words which reflect
the promise of the days to come.

and i can smile,
and i can look to the stars
and sense the wonder of a child again
as i ponder simpler questions
with grander implications

such as, why do the heavens, in their glorious expanse
seem to engulf me in a blanket of stars?
is it because the night sky panorama is somehow
larger, or because i see myself in a portrait
and know, one being cannot exist by himself?

why is it that when i behold
something as ordinary as the moon
i can see the portal to the horizon
and revel in the wind with
humble appreciation?

the combination of particles blowing through my hair
is the combination of voices chanting out, leading me
toward paradoxes and puzzles, symphonies and soliloquies,
patiently awaiting the dawn to dream of dances

and partners
and hope and peace
and simple tranquility
and promise and change
and the knowledge that the future,
once so startlingly uncertain
has now become an open book
with pages desperate to be filled by us.

i step through the door and into the days which follow
and interlace my fingers with the hand reaching out for mine
knowing that whatever might come, whomever i shall
meet from this day forth, and whatever i shall do…

… i do not face it alone.

Tangle Me, My Reverie

tangle me within the whispers of the evening
and hold me close within the shadow of the day.
sunset brings with it the kiss of soft remembrance,
pining for the brush of tender touches;
beckon me and steal me away.

i want to be surrounded by your essence,
feeling you inside the marrow of my bones.
i want to drift to sleep with you my final thought,
and wake with you a desperate notion,
my spirit not sated without you near.

you bolster me with words of wisdom.
you clutch my hand through tempests
wrought by human hands; you guide me
through the desert valley. when i am with you
nothing could distill these sentiments…

except to lose myself within the moments and
lose myself within the promise of tomorrow.
sentinel of my soul, my heart kept safe within
the cherished emotions exchanged,
come tangle me within your peace, my reverie.

The Eleventh Hour – Pt. 2

Mitchell Livingston had been born during a time when the abacus still defined the technology of modern computing, in an era before cars and trains dotted the landscape of the country he was raised in. His short, black hair slicked back with a widow’s peak perched atop his forehead, he appeared to be the consummation of Count Dracula himself, sharp fangs slumbering in a sea of white. His dark, cunning eyes could cut through men with the simplest of scowls. Nobody liked to anger Mitch. The results often proved fatal.

The evening started as most did for him. After a shower and a fresh change of clothing, his fingers raked through the hair of the woman he kept as a pet. Her gaze met his expectantly – a pretty little blonde thing he picked up in Texas (fuck, but those women were feisty before they were broken) – and a sharp moan punctuated the prick of his fangs into her throat. Mitch only stole a few sips from her, but he knew the day was coming soon when he would have to end her. Her large, brown eyes indicated the lights were on, but the resident was vacating the building.

With a sigh, Mitch settled into his chair, noting how quickly it seemed those pets met their expiration date. The vampires of his bloodline – the Lamiae, according to the Supernatural Order – often supplemented kills with quick feeds and the keeping of pets. The problem being that feeding from a human too often eventually reduced them to a mindless zombie. Granted, he had held onto this one longer than her predecessor, but even the strongest of mortals could not avoid the inevitable. And Mitch had no desire to blood bond with her to keep her rational beyond a few additional feedings.

Other than that, things seemed to be quiet. Mitch reclined his leather office chair and oscillated from side to side on it, pivoting this way and that while his feet remained planted firm on the floor below. His eyes scanned across the pictures hanging on his study walls, seeing visual reminders of a long, accomplished life. A landscape of Britain reminded him of where he had been born and the painting of Austria served as a recollection of the first nest he oversaw. Prints of Romania, Hungary, and Germany each placed markers on one rung after the next up the political ladder. Mitch turned to face the large windows overlooking Portland, Oregon, seeing the lights of downtown from his posh penthouse. One step further, and he would be a king.

If the current one ever abdicated, that is. Read the rest of this entry

The Eleventh Hour

“The dog days are over,
The dog days are gone.
Can you hear the horses?
‘Cause here they come.”

- “Dog Days Are Over” by Florence + the Machine

The black, polished shoes produced a perfect squeak as they shuffled down the corridor, a single sound bouncing from one wall to the next in the empty thoroughfare. Where ordinarily, there would be scores of people walking this way and that, headed to the various departments of these hallowed halls, tonight was different. The body of people typically assembled were already in a meeting room, sweating over coffee and cigarettes and Mark Johansen was running late.

In their long history, the Supernatural Order had faced world-ending situations before. The splintering of bloodlines which formed the vampire faction they hunted in the first place almost provoked a giant cluster-fuck which ended life as they knew it from their very inception. That had been a millennium ago, roughly. Back when humanity still believed in magic. Sorcerers, witches, and warlocks dotted the landscape of the Dark Ages and one magician in particular drifted further into the darkness, looking for immortality. That was the first time vampires learned to wield magic themselves. The genesis of a war.

Not that they ever told anybody but those in their employ about the other bloodline which existed, the older one the Order never tangled with except on very rare occasions. Or that there was much of a difference between the vampires humanity still denied existed in its blanket of blissful unawareness. Ignorance an intoxicant with the populace drunk on its spell, oh vampires had been around for more than the millennium the Supernatural Order existed, but they hid the truth like they hid every other truth from mortals who no longer believed in magic.

The time for ignorance had ended, though. The war had entered Phase Two. Read the rest of this entry

Music of the Night

soft, a melody plays
between two kindred souls and lovers.
depths yet to be plumbed,
fathomless, the mastery of composition
in a single word,
a single breath shared.
the symphony of souls united.

raise the bow to strings,
a harmony established, a sonnet of notes;
poetry in rhythm.

lift the instrument to lips,
the tale of passionate exchanges
in the simplicity of a song.

together, something beautiful conveyed
within each measure, something
inexplicable communicated.
duet of consequence,
and musicians of fate’s whims,
or could it be the music played
drawing one close to the other?

soft, the twilight beckons,
singing its own summons, the majestic
curtain call of ages.

whispered promises between
two lovers, depths yet to be plumbed
with each note they play.

Musings of the Heart

unfolding my heart like the
petals of a rose in bloom,
i call to you in darkness
and see you in the light.

you, the fire burning through
my veins; the pulse within
which beats with sound and
fury each time we are together.

i cherish you, my lover.
far beyond the scope of
seas, depths of fathoms,
stretching for miles.

i need you more than
mortal lungs need breath
and hold onto you, desperate
never wishing to let go.

why do the stars appear
that much brighter when we
walk underneath their
celestial canopy?

why does the moon appear
to illuminate the entirety
of the world whenever we stand
hand in hand together?

i can only imagine such
inquiries are akin to asking
why the world revolves around
the sun, seasons turn to years.

i only know, i hope those
seasons, years, those eons stretch
beyond the scope of my
limited imagination.

because you are, and shall always be
the lifeblood of my soul,
feeding it rich with desire and
offering it a place to call home.

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