Archive for August, 2009

Thinking on Eternity

my heart and soul find themselves
playing hopscotch with head and mind,
intertwining with reason, forming coherency
out of the confluence of time and sentiment.

i trace across the years that have passed
like a movie running reel after reel
of fate and consequence, wondering how
i find myself where i find myself today.

and i look at you
and i touch you, smell you, taste you
to know that you are real.

fingers tracing road maps along your spine,
a lost traveler across topography i have
traversed seventy times seven with
seven million times yet in store.

lips brushing against infinity, wishing to kiss
the edge of eternity with you in my arms.
i wonder if we reach the edge, will we topple
over the other side together, or will we

simply land
within another space
where you and i are one
for another forever and ever, amen.

i could cross the decades and count the years.
i could drift to sleep in the warm embrace of
centuries and eons and epochs, knowing only
you and relishing the experience.

wondering if the vows of men and the promises
of those who have scarcely meant the covenants
they have entered into can be sanctified by
our blood shed in union, under one accord.

pledging to you the wide expanse of
stars and moon and the contents of my heart,
tossed into the air to land in the sky
we regard when we are together.

***

\”Such Great Heights\” by The Postal Service

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las-vegasLas Vegas, I am discovering, has New York City bested when it comes to which city can claim rights as the “City That Never Sleeps.” Twenty-four hour gaming and non-stop tourism is what seems to keep this place afloat with bright lights and extravagence everywhere one turns. I confess that prior to a couple of months ago, I had never visited this region, but now I seem to be making up for it in spades. Who would have figured it would one day be a temporary residence, prior to a much more pleasant jaunt out of the country than I am used to entertaining?

No, this will definitely not be the first time I have traveled abroad. It is the first time, though, that I will have the chance to actually stop and admire the scenery. That I shall share it with somebody I love with every measure of my heart and soul. I dare say, the idea of having such a companion makes me all the more excited about the prospect.

But here, we linger for the time being.

Tying up loose ends has taken on various forms, from arranging the methods of travel to ensuring we have all we might need for these days (weeks? months?) to follow. I have made several phone calls in search of former members of my old employers at the Supernatural Order and Victor has looked into matters in the political realm. Together, we have done everything from procuring new wardrobes to hunting and feasting on the local fare. One particular jaunt to a local country club left me scratching my head at the reaction one mortal woman inspired. Perhaps some of Victor’s quirks spilling into me through the conduit of blood shared?

Which brings up a very fascinating event which occured just the other night.

I padded into the bathroom while Victor slept to shower and dress for the day. Such is not the unusual occurance, I sleep very little — always have and perhaps always shall. Dawn drags me under into quiet repose, but my lids lift again far before sunset. As such, I write, read, and fiddle around with Victor’s sound system while waiting for my lover to rise some time afterward.

Back to the point. I walked into the bathroom and was forced into a double take as I passed the mirror. As I mentioned before, my bloodline might be able to imbibe mortal drink, but we lack a reflection. My supernatural abilities granted me a few years spent in mortal form again, and such is the only time when I have ever been able to gaze at myself through a literal looking glass since being turned.

What I saw was not my reflection, per se, but I swear, from my perephery I caught the glimpse of a shadow passing on the other side. As I whipped around to face the mirror, I caught a faint ember of… something. I cannot tell for certain just what it was. It was enough, though, to inspire quite a wide grin on my face the longer I stared at the absence of a reflection.

Might the blood passed from lover to lover be granting me the gift of a mirror image of myself once more? Heaven only knows. It might be wishful thinking on my part, but still, I have found myself gazing more intently at the place where I should be whenever I find myself in the bathroom. If the cosmos smiles upon me, perhaps one of these times I shall see the vampire I once gazed upon appear before my eyes. I know this sounds horribly conceited to speak aloud, but I assure the world, it is not for my own sake that I wish this to transpire.

Indeed, I shall be at my happiest on the day when somebody can snap a picture of my lover and me, standing arm in arm one of the places we venture to on our travels. Now… this is why I speak prayers to whatever gods might be listening to a creature such as me.

Enough of that for the time being. Time for me to see if Robin has returned my call.

Fare thee well.
Peter

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Within My Thoughts

holding breaths, rushing wild while
i dance within the dreams shared in the
silent reverie of night.

what if i held you for an eternity?
what if i promised not to ever let you go?

starlight and crystals shining down on
city streets, i relive every moment,
fantasizing about skin touching skin;
souls touching souls, hearts touching hearts.

i live within the moments burned indelibly.
i live within the echoes of a memory.

thinking perhaps if i reach out i might
find you somewhere in the space
between my fingers and my mind.

thinking maybe i might find you
in the pages of a book.
perhaps sitting beside me,
looking over my shoulder and telling me
just how much you enjoy these times we share.

wistful daydreams, fantasies, and footsteps
walking down some path before us.

i follow you toward paradise
each time i think of you.

***

\”The Light and the Glass\” – Coheed and Cambria

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This is Right

your scent still lingers all around me.
my fingers tingle with the memory of
tracing the features of your face,
exploring your body while knowing
this is right. this is all right.
i feel the cravings burning in my soul anew.

spent so much time dancing
without holding you inside my arms.
felt the fever rising without
letting you extinguish the flames.

the spellbound recollection of a kiss,
the way my soul became unraveled when
you looked at me that way,
and then i knew
that this was right, this was so right.
i reach for you to hold you once more.

spent so much time wondering
about the consequences of our actions.
felt the sentiments start rising
without sharing them with you, lover.

but now i know the way it feels when
my hands touch you and yours
touch me in return. the jolts of energy,
far more potent than a bolt of lightning.
this is right. this is very right.
i slip into your soul and find myself at home.

***

\”Howl\” – Florence + the Machine

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Just One…

knee deep inside the waters
rushing through the current
being pulled by the undertow
what i would not do for

one kiss,

one decadent embrace.

rushing to you to be united with
the spell you cast upon me
the way it feels whenever

you

me

we are this enthralled with one another.

just one kiss, my lover;
just one embrace, to be spellbound.
the world around us melting away
until all that is left is

you

me

the night between us,
the stars shattered and the earth
dislodged beneath our feet.

what i would not do
for you.

what i would not cross.

what mountains i would not climb
just to be with you.

bring me under,
pull me down;
capture me,
claim me,
and i shall show you
the depths of my love.

#41 – Dave Matthews Band

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penandjournalWell, if my brother can do this, then so can I.

Actually, I think I finally understand why Robin is so enamored with the idea of putting his experiences down on paper. For the first time in my life, I find myself looking ahead to the future instead of backward to the past and his words resonate inside my ears the more I look to the horizon and see the things to come. “I wish I would have jotted this down while it was happening,” Robin has said to me. “I would have loved to have captured the moment like a snapshot.”

Sadly, I have no reflection for photographs.

I imagine that sounds odd to hear somebody lament, but it is an honest matter of frustration for me. With everything I know is going to transpire in the weeks, months, and years to come, I wish I could pull out a camera and ask some tourist to snap a photo of Victor and I in whatever locale we happen to be at the time. I would only be a ghost in the picture, though, and would only become more vexed at this peculiarity within my bloodline that forbids me from having a reflection.

But I have words with which to capture my experiences. So, consider these my photographs and postcards.

Victor and I left San Francisco the other night and landed in Las Vegas, Nevada, where we are right now. While this is the commencement of the journey, it is merely a place we are sojourning while we tie up loose ends. From here, the globe becomes our playground and where we roam is wherever we desire to be. I become more and more excited for the things to come the more I consider tomorrow and each day from this point forth. Love truly is a wonder and having another soul to share such experiences a blessing and a gift this immortal poet never fancied he would receive.

So, with this first pen stroke on a fresh journal, I say…

“… It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life for me… and I’m feeling good…”

Peter

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Whenever We Come Together

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Light Through the Glass

through a glass dimly
what light could break through
opaque curtains while
shattered moments, forged anew
are placed on display for the world?

a moment of clarity.
i saw the portal through the
seeing stone and felt the winds of change
blowing with abandon,
gusts so hard, it knocked my footing loose.

from whence have i come
and to where shall i go?
too many pathways diverge
with the destination to each unknown.

with whom shall i walk?
tell me now, fates, and whisper your
secrets into ears ready for hearing.
i hear the ocean waves and
note the storms on the horizon.

and yet, i do not fear it.
though the waves may toss and the
seas may threaten to consume me,
there is a light on the horizon
the dawn approaches with bated breath.

holding onto eternity in the
palm of my hands, clutching onto it tight,
i look through the glass dimly
until explodes a blinding light,
daybreak, with rays that neither burn
nor consume this being enthralled.

in the distance, i hear the clamoring
sound of things to come and i
close my eyes and smile.
come for me, immortal night and
claim me in your arms forevermore.

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Tangled Up in You

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Dance With Me

stilled breaths settle in the air between us
as silent hearts beat forth a steady cadence,
hanging from the precipice, taking the plunge
falling to the depths, i come alive.

kiss my lips again and tell me
all your sacred secrets.

tell me your thoughts, lover, while i inquire
on the matters of soul to soul,
how two beings can be so tightly woven
into such a work of art as we.

touch my face and tell me
who you are inside.

reveal to me the things which tempt me
ascending to the heights,
my want, my need, my symphony,
arm in arm, we sing of one accord.

come to me and we shall
dance under the moonlight.

i catch my breath, as though the need to
breathe consumes my very core.
i bite my tongue to taste the blood and
sense you in the crimson flow.

eternal one, my heart soars and my
knees bend in admiration of you.
take my hand and sink with me in passion,
my maestro, lover mine,
my fire and ice forever more.

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